Update

So, my sabbatical has been working remarkably well. It has allowed me to really find some peace internally, which I am grateful to have come this far. I ran into "him" the other night and it was very civilized and I didn't have that burn inside me. That void that usually made me feel like I couldn't take my next breath. I was pleased, to say the least.

I do miss "him." But for other reasons. We used to have these excruciatingly deep conversation that would leave one of us in tears, but relieved. We could talk, uninterrupted, with our guards down about anything and everything. It was nice to have that kind of connection. I think our friendship could be totally salvaged, if we could have our friendship exist on a different plane, one that didn't involve our circle of friends. I know that's unrealistic, but I'm beginning to believe that nothing in life is impossible. However, I won't broach that subject with "him."  I'm content that way things are for the moment. I've also come to the conclusion that he wasn't the source of my stress, I was. Me and my crazy ideas and impressions. I needed a dose of reality.

So, in short, I'm doing quite well and things are looking up. Continuing to look forward to the future.