Cold Nostalgia Chills Me To The Bone

The ugly truth of it all is that when I think back on the last few months, chills overtake me. I find it repugnant that I've been so weak and unable to compete with a walking checklist in his bed. In everyone's minds for that matter. It is no surprise to me that I don't add up to someone else's ideas of perfection. Adding up is not something I aim to do. I am myself, standing here naked for everyone to see. But what you see, or what you perceive yourself to see is about to change. I'm undergoing a makeover of sorts. It's time for me to reclaim myself for who I really am. To stand up for the person inside me that's been repressed into an inner sanctum of solitude. Monday is my starting point. The beginning of the rest of my life. A positive change is coming and get ready, because it's going to give you all a case of whiplash.