The First Mistake

He really did have me at hello. It was like he was bred to be the perfect illusion to my defenses. He walked in, wearing a blue fitted t-shirt; a gray, tattered, and dirt stained hat, tight dark jeans and boots. His smile was drew me in at first and tracing that smile back, it was clearly displayed in his deep, blue eyes. I was blinded by the beauty that stood before me. Beauty that should have warned me from the beginning to run away and yet it drew me in ever more.
The night was spectacular. At the end of a long night of pool, beer, conversation and laughter, he invited me home with him. I should have said no and my mind was telling me so, but my heart and body couldn't resist. Just being near him sent my blood rushing through my body and my breathing to increase in rate. He was a drug to me, and I was becoming addicted in that very moment. Little did I know that I would fight that addiction continuously for months to come.
Once we reached his place, the inevitable occurred. His body was magnificent. Not perfection, but close enough to cause me to have the need to catch my breath from seeing it illuminated in the soft life of the lamp on his bedside table. His hair was a dark brown and it coursed over his body in all the right places. Not to much, but just enough to create a perfect shadow over the right parts of his body. Thus making them all the more desirable. I couldn't believe my eyes and I couldn't believe my hands. The touch of his skin was hard and soft at the same time. It was unlike any man's I had ever felt and it was amazing.
Through the course of our love-making he said to me, "I don't want just a hook-up." In that moment, I was fully prepared to give myself to him one hundred percent and for reasons unknown to me. I was baffled and blinded as only he could do. I felt like I had just taken a long line of the most perfect cocaine in the world and I gave myself to him when I knew I shouldn't have. He had won me in a way that no one had ever done before. Not to mention that the sex was over-the-top spectacular.
This was my first mistake.