Forever!

Gosh, it's been forever since I posted. I've been so busy with everything. School and life... They really get in the way sometimes. I'm going to do this post with a poem. The first one I've written in a LONG time. I don't know if it makes any sense, but it's all I've got momentarily.

Alone in a crowded room
His life in isolation
Secluded in his own thoughts
He begins his first interlude.

The seconds tick
And minutes pass
The hours chime
Clocks have no discretion

Seasons are changing
Yet he remains
Thinking....
Lost in translation.

Voices raise and lower
But they seem unclear
He glances around the room
Suddenly filled with unbridled power.

Judged because of his life
He continues pushing on
Fury has no place in him
Love has filled his heart.




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Yoga Rocks and China Is Up In The Air

So, I just did yoga for the first time in my living room and let me just tell you, it's amazing. I feel so relaxed but energized. I feel absolutely amazing right now. I definitely believe this is going to become a part of my every day routine. Who would have thought? I always thought it was a bunch of hype and boy was I wrong.

Now I'm settled in and watching the opening ceremonies of the 2008 Olympics.

I have mixed emotions watching this. Knowing that China has a LONG history of oppression and iron-fisted ruling. Yes I see these ceremonies and I'm absolutely stunned by the sheer magnitude and beauty of the proceedings. 15,ooo individuals performing only one routine each. I wonder to myself, are they forced into doing this or are they actually paid for services?

Is what we're seeing, communism in a grandiose performance? Did all of the new construction really create many homeless people? Are we seeing poverty stricken peoples and the priviledged all on one stage as if to say that everyone in China is equal? I know it's not a capitalist democracy like our society, but it upsets me to see all of these people knowing inside my bones that they are forced into this beautiful display of China's history and current presence in our world.

I can't believe watching this that we first learned about silks and fireworks from this country. I can't believe that we still rely on them so much for almost every single everyday product we have.

Seeing this tonight has almost left me in tears knowing that the people of China are unable to live as we do in the United States. We have no idea, and take for granted everything that we are afforded in our sordid, priveledged lives in this country. Our citizens are naive to believe that we are oppressed by our government. At least we can make a future for ourselves. Their futures are planned out from day one. I do feel blessed tonight, knowing that I live in the land of the free. I only wish their government could wake up and realize that they have a gold mine under them. A power unmatched by any other. They have a belief system routed in wonder and majesty. If these people were given the chance to blossom by free-will their country could be far greater than our own and we could live in peace with them rather than living in fear of them.

Another nights ramblings... I have so much on my mind right now to write about. This is just the beginning.

Blast From the Past!

Sometimes when you're sitting at home, wondering what you're doing with your life, someone calls and it all makes sense. Some people have a way, at just the right time, of letting you know that you're appreciated and your presence has made a positive impact on their life.

My good friend Brett called me tonight, out of the clear blue. Spastic, ADD, boistrous, loving Brett. I miss him. He misses me. I have to spend some time with him soon.

Unlike the rest of the gay community, Brett challenges me on so many levels. He challenges me to be a better person. He challenges me to think before I act. He challenges me to make decisions. He challenges me to broaden my horizons and expande my mind to the limits. He challenges me to not run with the crowd, but to lead it with a different example.

None of these challenges are direct. These challenges are by his example. He leads by example whether he realizes it or not. He is morally sound, fiscally responsible, and is an overall wonderful person to know. If you haven't ever had the chance to get to know this guy, you definitely should. I can't think of any solitary flaw when I think of him. Well, except that he's a Republican but I won't hold that against him.

Sometimes life brings you back to reality and tonight, reality slapped me in the face when he called. I've been slacking in keeping up old friendships that actually meant something more than drugs, alcohol, beating base, and sex.

Thanks for the call Brett!

7-16-08 Update

Well rested at last!

I had clinicals the last 2 days and enjoyed them, even though they were supremely easy. I only have 6 days of school left this term, then a 3 week break. Then 4 months and I'm done! I'll be a nurse!

I'm missing my girls. Hell, I've forgotten what they look like.

My crack addicted uncle got out of jail today and he's causing a stir. But that's a story in an of itself.

My cousin is back from her vacation in Panama today.

I've lost 12 pounds. Still dreaming of the perfect body.

I've head a recurrent dream that I've won 273 million dollars in the Louisiana lottery. Seems highly unlikely.

Life is moving forward at a great pace, and I'm enjoying every minute of it. I just can't wait to get back to a normal routine of work and home. Can't wait to save up for the Mercedes and home of my dreams.

I want to see "Mama Mia"!

I am SO excited about Friday night!

That's all!

Summer's Ending.

I wish I could post more often. Brief update.

10 days of school left. 6 test left to be taken, plus clinicals in the hospital. We only have clinicals 4 days, so that's a test a day until we're finished. Holy crap!!!!

This isn't the end of the road just yet. I still have the fall semester to do, but let's hope that's going to be a walk in the park.

I haven't been posting because I've had class everyday and people over here every night until near midnight studying for all of these tests.

Rachel and I had the best afternoon last week catching up while I watched her paint. I'm still amazed, but that's a different story!

Everything's going great except I've got to do something about the checkbook. I forgot how expensive everything is nowadays. But, I still need to change some spending habits. Gah, I'm so ready to be done so I don't have to worry about it as much!

Anyway, hope all is well with everyone!

Love ya!